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what a day

01.21.07 (5:38 pm)   [edit]
sometimes being desperate makes me feel wierd about myself. i am still 21 and i should nver feel that way. i must have million things i can do. But i cant pretend sometimes i feel desperate and it just happened today. I MISS MY BABE SO MUCH. How i wish he was here with me. I feel desperate not knowing what to do. He's my lovely one i have.

NEW PICS

01.17.07 (7:25 am)   [edit]

Hello bloggers, here are some of my pics. Hope you enjoy them much.

 

Birthday moment

12.14.06 (8:25 am)   [edit]
I just had my brithday on last 12th. It was not very great, I have been having heavy thoughts. Since the day, I am offically 21 now. I'm feeling wierd between many things of getting older. I just dont want to get old too fast to not be able to play like youngers. But in the other side, i know as a human i have to get older each day, each year. One thing i learnt from last brithday was that i realized that i am not living in this world year by year, but day by day. I dont feel so much different after being 21. Things go the same each day like the other normal days. Not exactly the same, but some part of them just are. I just dont think now that birthday, that we celebrate each year does matter in real life. At least not for this year. I didnt feel special this year on my brithday.

well things get busy

12.07.06 (6:38 am)   [edit]
things get crowded at school, with homeworks and projects. I have been organizing two different teams for two different type of projects. One is to make a novel, the other one is to make a documentary film. To be honest, organizing members in team is way difficult. There are sort of problems like having different opinions between each other -which has been the main problem, and also like gathering all the members' mind in one way of thinking. It needs lots of work and energy and definately patience. The other problem is that from almost all the members I am the youngest one, which means that I have to assure all the older members in my team to follow my direction, with only one single condition that is I must be able to show up as a good and promising leader. However, I feel so much excited (I'll keep on it)

it is december now

12.05.06 (6:39 am)   [edit]
i am now 20 and going to be 21 on 12 next week. A bit nervous, but also wondering. Not very much excited, because things are the same i guess, and only me growing older physically and should-be mentally. Time's clicking, i know. I have to get myself to think more mature about life i am living. Hh, dont want to get older too fast. I have not experienced a very good childhood when i was much younger. Life's going on..

still so bored.. even more

10.19.06 (8:15 am)   [edit]

I have been trying to change the color font of the title on my blog, but it wont easily work. It looks too dark as a title, i just think a title has to be clear and brightful so anyone can see it clearly as well. I tried checing in the Tweak template, but still it comes out to nothing. Oh so boring today is. I wish my lover was here with me sitting beside me to have talk with. It's been a lonely morning.

Speaking about the time, the time (the hours) showed near by the title, it is not actually the real time here when i am writing this post. I hardly know how to change it, but i'll find out later.

 

no school today? so boring...

10.19.06 (7:48 am)   [edit]
Oh, badly as i just arrived at school this morning by 7, there were no friends in the class, and it was only me showing up. The teacher was actually there, but because of the condition where no students showed up, he decided to dismiss the class. It made me feel so bad . The reason why none of students came was because next week will be a long holiday for school, so everybody decide to return to them in different regions much earlier. What a bad day!

oh i feel so tired..

10.17.06 (6:52 pm)   [edit]

it's been a pretty tiring day. i've been at school from 7 to 5pm in the evening. Ohh, so tired.

i feel like just laying down in bed and just falling asleep. tomorrow i'll get prepared for school by 6.30, and so on.

have a good day to me tomorrow! :)

it's been a quiet long time..

10.15.06 (9:17 am)   [edit]
hi readers. it's quiet a long time i havent written a post. Anyway, i hardly know what to say right now. Just staying update.

my small short story...

09.15.06 (6:23 am)   [edit]

Ymel and Emyl, and Their Grandma’

"Grandma', why didn't you call me to have the breakfast this morning? You let me so hungry right now." Ymel just kept complaining to his grandma for hours in the sunny afternoon.
"I told you, boy," said the old lady. "I did knock on your door this morning, but you didn't give me any response by yelling me back or opening the door."
"You must not tell me the truth, grandma'," replied him. "Although I had a very nice sleep last night, I swear I still would’ve been able to hear your voice calling me from outside, unless you did not try to wake me up." He turned his face over.
"Once again, let me tell you," added Ymel's grandma', "I was already up by early morning preparing the breakfast for you and for other kids in the house, and once I'd done preparing, I called everybody up from downstairs. Everybody went down and ate their breakfast, and when they had finished it, I realized that you were not yet downstairs to have your breakfast, so I went upstairs to call you by knocking on your door. But, as I truly told you, you didn't give any response to my call."
"I think you’ve made me upset, grandma'," claimed Ymel.
"See, how old are you?" asked her calm to her lovely grandson, one of her lovely 10 grandsons!
"Eight. That has nothin' to do with our prob here, doesn't it, huh?" answered him upset and a little confused. "Stay on our prob, please!"
"That's what I'm talking about, boy," said grandma'.
"What're you trying to say? You're trying to make me lost in this twisted prob, rite'?" He started getting suspicious.
"No, no, boy. I am not," replied her. "See, you know you're still eight. You know that you never complained to me for calling you 'boy', instead of 'guy' or 'man'."
"What's the thing here, huh? You're still having me upset by our problem about this morning. Don't try to twist it."
"As an eight year-old boy, I can understand what you are feeling. And as a much older lady like me, I can understand that I must listen to you and agree with anything you want me to agree with. But, related to our problem, the only thing you have to know is that your grandma' here never lied to you or to her other 10 grandsons in our big house."
"So...?" Ymel finally got a little bit relieved, but still upset.
"So, I did try knocking on your door this morning to wake you up for breakfast. I am not lying."
"You just said… you never lied to us? So, you are not lying that you tried to wake me up this morning?" asked Ymel curious.
"No, I did never lie to all of you in the house," said her. "So, don't be mad at me anymore."
"O.K."
...few minutes later
    & nbsp;  
A bigger boy suddenly showed up and surprised Ymel and grandma' from behind. Apparently, that bigger boy has been listening to their talks since the beginning. It's Emyl. He's one of Ymel's cousins.
"What're you doing here?" asked Ymel to him.
"Have you been here, Emyl?" asked grandma'. "For how long, boy?"
"Yea, I know what you've been talking about." He stood up and proudly showed his chest up, talking like a real gentleman or more correctly a gentle-boy. "Don't worry I'm not a big mouth kinda man."
"Hey, remember! You're just a bit older than I am. Knock calling yourself a man off!" cut Ymel. He's getting sick of his cousin. "Tell everyone about that, and you'll get nothing." He smiled a little to him. Not a cool smile, but a very cold one instead.
"So attemptin' your threat is! Yea rite! Unfortunately what I meant was not up to other people, but to you instead," said Emyl. "You're the one that should be let know."
"What do you mean, huh? Tell me what I should know!" insisted Ymel.
"Ehm, boys let's go inside." Grandma' tried to break the small chaos bring her two grandsons in the house. She seems to be so nervous. 
"No, grandma'. Let Ymel go inside on his own. I still want to talk a lil' with you," said Emyl.
"You're right. I’m done with this prob. All I trust is you, grandma'. I know you never lied to anyone of us." Ymel threw himself out of the ironed garden chair to go inside the house. He ran a little.
Emyl moved and sat on the chair beside his grandma', and asked something,
"Grandma', you always tell us that you never lied to us. But, why did you keep lying to Ymel?" asked him with a huge curiosity.
"Are you sure that that’s what I always tell you? I think you missed something there." 
"I did?"
"See, let me tell you one more time what I always tell all of you. I never lied to you in our big house. You get it?" said grandma’.    & nbsp;   &n bsp;
"Let me think. You always tell us that you never lied to all of us... in our big house," repeated Emyl, looking up to the sky like he knew the answer would be written in it. Magically he got something, "Oh, yea! I got it now, grandma'. No, you never lied to any of us in our big house. I know now."
"Smart boy. And now let's get into the house. It's getting too hot out here."
They two laughed out loud.
THE EN..
    & nbsp;   
“One more thing, grandma’. Can you tell me why you had to lie to Ymel?” asked Emyl to her lovely grandma’.
“Come on… we all knew why, the pancakes were too good to share with him. He has a big mouth.” She turned down her voice a little bit and turned her eye-balls around. “Let’s make other pancakes tomorrow morning.”
Emyl added, “And stay quiet!” He didn’t actually add, but suggested instead.
“That’s what I’m talking about, boy!” agreed grandma’.
They two laughed out loud, again.